So Tired…

Today’s Journey Through Scripture Readings:
Deuteronomy 25-27; Mark 14:27-53


37 He came and found them sleeping. He said to Peter, “Simon, are you asleep? Couldn’t you stay alert for one hour? 38  Stay alert and pray so that you won’t give in to temptation. The spirit is eager, but the flesh is weak.”

39 Again, he left them and prayed, repeating the same words. 40 And, again, when he came back, he found them sleeping, for they couldn’t keep their eyes open, and they didn’t know how to respond to him. 41 He came a third time and said to them, “Will you sleep and rest all night? That’s enough! The time has come for the Human One[b] to be betrayed into the hands of sinners. 42  Get up! Let’s go! Look, here comes my betrayer.” (Mark 14:37-42, Common English Bible)

It is Sunday afternoon, I am sitting in my recliner at the parsonage. Worship is over, I have just had a nice lunch, and I have some kind of game or race or perhaps even a movie on television. Before I know it, I am drifting off to sleep. I catch myself and start to fight off that nap. But, my eyelids get heavier and heavier and before I know it, two hours have passed, the game I wanted to watch so bad is over. It seems like I just finished lunch ten minutes ago but now it is almost dinner time. And the really bad part, I still feel so tired.

Have you been there? Most of us have. I have gone to bed wanting to read a book and before I knew it I woke up with my Kindle off and I knew I had better put it away and get some real sleep. I have gone to sleep while in prayer and the next thing I know, the alarm clock is going off and its time to get up and I never did finish my prayer. Then I just feel guilty.

When I was doing youth work, I would ask kids how they were doing. The response I got more often than not, “I am so tired!” I still hear that as often as not when I ask the question.

I think the disciples in today’s lesson could identify with that. Jesus has asked them to stay awake and pray with him. The disciples may not have been laying in their beds but they were still exhausted after a day of preparation for the Passover meal and then eating the meal itself. I feel certain that because Jesus had asked them to stay awake and pray they wanted to do so. Still, there reaches a point the body just can’t go on.

Jesus knew that as well as anyone. I find it interesting that earlier in this Gospel, Jesus is asleep in a boat during a pretty vicious storm and the disciples had to wake him up. Now he is scolding them for not staying awake while they pray.

Jesus did have a point. The disciples time remaining with him was very limited. He told them as much. Most of us would like to think we could be stronger than the disciples on that night so long ago. In truth, we, at least most of us, would find it as difficult to stay awake as they did.

And then, it was over. The mob, led by Judas was present. They were there at the instructions of the Chief Priests. They were there to bring about the beginning of the end, or so they thought. It was just about Friday.

Have a blessed day in the Lord.

With Joy and Thankfulness,

Copyright 2017, J. Keith Broyles, All Rights Reserved



Spirita Spiro (Esperanza for "Spirit's Breath) is rather new in my life. But the blog is not. I began writing a blog several years ago. It lived under the title, "The Pastor Ponders." Over the years I have tried several different names and "The Pastor Ponders" always seemed to fit best. I am trying again with Spirita Spiro. For 27 years I was a full-time pastor in the United Methodist Church. This year, August 2018, I semi-retired (I can't actually retire quite yet) and began teaching social studies. It is something I have always wanted to do and if I was going to do this, I needed to make it sooner rather than later. So, I made the move. I thought with the career change there also needed to be a name change to the blog and other things, such as spiritual direction. Spirita Spiro is my attempt to share some of my thoughts. I often share what I am thinking with my dog "Bishop," but he keeps his thoughts to himself. He will even go to sleep sometimes while I am sharing my thoughts with him. The truth is, if it doesn't involve getting his ears scratched, his belly rubbed or some kind of treat, he really doesn't care. I will say this for him, he never argues with me or tells me I am wrong. So, I decided to share some of my thoughts with whoever might come across this blog in their ramblings around the Internet. I live with my wife Cindy and our little dog in Lufkin, Texas. I spent the past 27 years as a full-time United Methodist pastor. Most recently I served as pastor of First United Methodist Church in Sweeny, Texas. I have also served United Methodist congregations throughout East Texas including rural Madison County (Elwood UMC), Lovelady (First UMC) and Kennard (Center Hill UMC), Canton (First UMC), rural Smith County (Mt. Sylvan UMC and Union Chapel UMC), Grapeland (First UMC), Tyler (Pleasant Retreat UMC), Santa Fe (Aldersgate UMC), Freeport (First UMC) and Oyster Creek (Oyster Creek UMC), Diboll (First UMC), and now Sweeny (First UMC). My wife Cindy and I have been married for over 40 years. We have two grown sons. Wayne and his wife Nikki and all our grandsons (Kaleb, Noah, and Jaxon) live in Southern California. Christopher and his wife Morgan and both our granddaughters (Jenna and Natalie) live in Tyler Texas. I enjoy preaching and all aspects of preaching from research to writing to the actual preaching event. I also love writing, reading, playing the guitar as well as a bit of drawing. I have spent quite a bit of time over the past two years working with paracord on various projects, mostly prayer ropes I usually give away. I sing bass with a local barbershop chorus called The Coastalaires. I have also recently begun doing a little wood carving. I also enjoy playing with Bishop, something he likes a great deal better than listening to my thoughts. I hold an Associate of Applied Science Degree in Business Data Processing, specializing in Microcomputers from San Jacinto College in Pasadena, Texas, a Bachelor of Science in Political Science with a minor in History from Sam Houston State University in Huntsville, TX, a Master of Divinity from Southern Methodist University in Dallas, TX and a Doctor of Ministry from Carolina University of Theology. When I was a student at Carolina, the school was in Iron Station North Carolina. They have since relocated to Manassas Virginia (Yeah, go figure, a school named Carolina geographically in Virginia). This blog is mostly devotional writing, but there are other things here too. Just about every week I will either post my sermon manuscript or a video of the worship service. On occasion, I will post something I see in society. Occasionally I write a short story, a poem, or a song and will post it here too. I will say this, my motivations for writing this blog are really selfish. I write it to get what I am thinking out of my head and onto something a bit more permanent. They say, after all, once something is on the internet it never really goes away. Still, I hope you enjoy reading it. And, should you desire, you can one-up Bishop and actually tell me what you think. Who knows, it might generate a bit of discussion between you and me and anyone else who might make their way here. With Joy and Thankfulness, Keith Sweeny, Texas May 2018

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